Building the Ideal Disciplinarian

After deciding to advertise a little more on Pandemos, I started to sketch out new ideas for the site. The pictures are almost a year old and I feel weird having them up. I know that seriously interested parties will read the whole site and look through the current candids on my Flickr account, but I want my best and most recent face forward.

This is also a time for me to make my philosophies clearer. To go beyond listing what I like and give insight into where it all comes from.

I know I’ve been successful in maintaining a professional demeanor and still be able to let my personality shine through. If I give too many details, I may come off as crass. But if I’m too vague, what appeal will there be in having a session with me?

I am a strong woman who believes in striving towards perfection. I demand full effort and doing all the work necessary to reach one’s goals. I fail, and I fall behind, but I make for damn sure that my errors don’t make a second appearance.

My personal life is meeting with my professional life again. I did something at my day job that was completely uncalled for and only served in making me look stupid. I initially didn’t give it much thought, but the humiliation grew during the train ride home…By the time I reached my partner’s car, I was struck dumb with the magnitude of what I had done.

…and the feeling didn’t go away until I myself was disciplined for it. I didn’t feel right until I atoned for it physically to ensure that I never did it again. I suffered the humiliation of having to admit what I had done, and then get some right punishment for it.

I felt better when it was over. The personal disappointment hurt, but I felt better after I was hugged and told to remember this.

May it never happen again.